Wednesday, November 3, 2010
"Say What You Need To Say" A Letter To My Mother
As Poetess Wug as dubbed this "Say what you need to say" day, I thought I might as well contribute to this. Please be sure to check her letter out as well! Here Now here is a letter and some thoughts I would love to send to my mother.
It's been 46 years since you left me. I didn't even get to hug you and say "goodbye!" You were so young and I was only 10 years old. I still needed you so much!! When you died, it became my job to see to it that my little sister (3 yrs. old) was cared for, and my brothers were fed. I was too young!! I had no clue what to do!...... But somehow we made it through. Dad was such a good man and made sure we had what we needed. He did his best, and I love him so much for it!
I grew up and got married (you would love my husband!). Remember when I was a little girl and you were always saying how much you wanted to be a grandma? Well guess what..... I had 2 sons!! They were a joy to raise! But I have to tell you that something happened when my oldest turned 10. I panicked because I had no idea how to be a mom from that time forward, because I didn't have you to teach me! I'm sorry I became so angry with you. The doctor said that was probably the first time I mourned your death. I always tried to stay strong for the rest of the family. Well, anyway, my wonderful husband set me down and reassured me things would be alright because now he would take over. And guess what? It worked! We successfully raised them to be kind, considerate and loving Christian men! And they married women who are also! Now you're a great grandma too! Two wonderful children..... a boy and a girl both bi-lingual in English and Spanish! You would be so proud. I only wish you were here to enjoy them. I know you will..... someday.... real soon!!
I'll see you in the near future!
Your loving daughter, Cindy